Sunday, October 19, 2008

Dread



Such an interesting word:

[dred]

Verb (used with object)

1. to fear greatly; be in extreme apprehension of: to dread death.
2. to be reluctant to do, meet, or experience: I dread going to big parties.

I dread both death and going to big parties. For the record.

I woke up this morning with dread in my body.

Dread of Monday, dread of the rent increase, dread of people being all up in my shit, dread of calling a really good friend who I need to reconnect with in a serious way, dread of feeling dread.

Dread of my signature softlight frying itself last night at the beginning of a shoot and dread of me having to get it fixed or buy a new one.

Dread.

Life is cyclical. But dread is a constant. There are ups and downs in life, but dread keeps poking it's ugly little head into all my business.

I need to quit smoking. but I dread the monkey on my back third day fallout.

I need to get published again, but I dread talking to human beings who hold those positions.

I need to work out, but I dread, uhmmm, actually doing it.

I am not a lot of fun right now.

Sorry. Whatever...

Cover Star: Naama
Headlining Band: The Afghan Whigs

4 comments:

hypolux said...

Dread........must be todays theme.

ugh.

therapy later.

theFstopshere said...

I feel many of those same things... every Sunday. "Hey.. get out of my dread!"

e-string said...

I hear ya.

*hugs*

Miss you.

Marcos Rivera said...

I believe an Amen (albeit a word I am opposed to using) is in order here.

Hope things get better or you.