Sunday, October 19, 2008
Such an interesting word:
Verb (used with object)
1. to fear greatly; be in extreme apprehension of: to dread death.
2. to be reluctant to do, meet, or experience: I dread going to big parties.
I dread both death and going to big parties. For the record.
I woke up this morning with dread in my body.
Dread of Monday, dread of the rent increase, dread of people being all up in my shit, dread of calling a really good friend who I need to reconnect with in a serious way, dread of feeling dread.
Dread of my signature softlight frying itself last night at the beginning of a shoot and dread of me having to get it fixed or buy a new one.
Life is cyclical. But dread is a constant. There are ups and downs in life, but dread keeps poking it's ugly little head into all my business.
I need to quit smoking. but I dread the monkey on my back third day fallout.
I need to get published again, but I dread talking to human beings who hold those positions.
I need to work out, but I dread, uhmmm, actually doing it.
I am not a lot of fun right now.
Cover Star: Naama
Headlining Band: The Afghan Whigs