Tuesday, April 08, 2008

The Stops

Tonight is only slightly better than last night. It's just been one of those couple of days.

I had some wine and food with a former client tonight, one of my favorite people in the world and she was so kind and wonderful. And genuine. And cool. And gracious. And cute.

It gives one hope. In humanity, I mean.

I feel a little out of control. I feel a little unhinged. I feel a little unanything.

I miss my girl. I hate the distance. I hate the distance. I think I might have mentioned that one before.

I hate the financial instability, real or imagined. I hate only having one solid client. I, oh fuck it, I'm fortunate.

Remember that, asshole.

Soundtrack: Elbow.

"I can't undo the day
It won't go under the rug
I pull out all the stops
And you, you pull the plug

These are soberer days and I know it can't be
But I'll miss you the way you miss the sea

Just don't look down
Keep staring like you've never seen the stops
If you need me to remind you who you are
Little blossom there's the shiniest soul
Just behind those eyes

No longer my affair
Well I can't go there just yet
So I've come to love and trust those friends
That are holding your net

Falling off used to mean
Maybe grazing a knee
And I'll miss you the way you miss the sea

Just don't look down
Keep staring like you've never seen the stars
If you need me to remind you who you are
Little blossom there's the shiniest soul
Just behind those eyes

While I won't second guess
What you're thinking of me."

Photo Star: Meagan.

3 comments:

Meagan Sample said...

I fucking LOVE YOUR GUTS


!!

Tanya said...

through all the ups and downs, and loops and dead ends, it's most important to remember two things, what we are grateful for, and that Karma exists.

Collin J. Rae said...

In the midst of those kinda days right now...stranded in Chicago on my way to SF...had to end that trip before even getting there when "some things" were suddenly brought to my attention. I should have given up on this months ago. Alas...